crap

I no longer believed in the idea of soul mates, or love at first sight. But I was beginning to believe that a very few times in your life, IF you were lucky, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you. Not because that person was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together.

well, its just another crap.

 craaappppp

once you lose someone,

its never exactly the same person who come back.

dan itu aku

peace

kita hanya mampu merancang. Allah yang menentukan. well here I am. still. since macam ada changing in the plan aku macam kat rumah lagi laa 2 3 harini. what a waste la kan? kempunan nak tengok pantai kat sana. pergi pulau ka. tsk tsk. ='|

and I did use my so-called-precious time at very best lulz. mana tak best makan, tido, tengok tv, tido, bangun lagi, makan lagi. daaaaaan restructuring my life here and there so it doesn't sucks anymore. I wish! raya was great but without certain individuals to celebrate with, it did feel empty somewhere. duit raya? naah budak budak je collect duit raya tak macho ah. xD

on another case yang tak berkaitan, at some point I do feel that I am not worth your time. I am not that great for you to think about. 

eat well. 

live well.

 dan itu aku

presenter

bila macam benda dah lama happened tapi kau baru nak update, I just don't care and give shits about it so shadap people lulz. being one of the presenter have taught me a lot in many ways I could possibly tell. macam there are certain criterias that you need to have. its either you're born with it or you polish it. apa apa pun skills macam be able to present whatever you need to macam agak useful in future la especially in the industry. so I planned and did well. I guess.

besides been able to conduct projects for locals is something mulia la since you're giving back to the community. tapi bila macam kau tak menang and the opportunity to go to cancun mexico hilang sekelip mata you start to ask yourself "should I give more to the community?" or "should I stop giving?" luls. dapat first runner up pun jadi la ini la orang melayu tak reti bersyukur luls.

"the future is not written in stone"

on another case yg tak berkaitan, who knows what's the future holds for us? in the meantime grab yourself and make your stand. dream big as you can. but along the journey please please cari and gather all the support system you can find. sebab bila macam once you failed or collapsed you wont go that deep. I am here. so does everyone else. =)

 and benda paling precious yg aku dpt yg mana kau tak boleh beli kat mana mana.

family.

well I took your challenge 

and make it mine

dan itu aku

all is well

" the devil was once an angel "

" those who are heartless once cared too much "

when you live your life for someone else.

you know you'll find yourself in the deep shit once the person walk away.

 the night you chose to be with someone else.

I knew I am all fucked up!

the journey onwards might not be easy.

but imma solo those shits and walk through it.

I wish I am strong enough to say all these.

I guess I just lost my balance.
and the worst part of it all wasn't losing you.
it was losing me.

life is a gamble.

and I know I bet wrong.
I just can't seem to get out.

dan itu aku.