So hold your head high~

Imma hold my head high. I fight enough for you and the outcome was devastating. No more broken promises. No more hurting each other. Let live our life to the fullest since we only live once.

Like I once told you

Once you lose someone,

Its never exactly  the same person who come back.

Dan itu aku.

crap

I no longer believed in the idea of soul mates, or love at first sight. But I was beginning to believe that a very few times in your life, IF you were lucky, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you. Not because that person was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together.

well, its just another crap.

 craaappppp

once you lose someone,

its never exactly the same person who come back.

dan itu aku

peace

kita hanya mampu merancang. Allah yang menentukan. well here I am. still. since macam ada changing in the plan aku macam kat rumah lagi laa 2 3 harini. what a waste la kan? kempunan nak tengok pantai kat sana. pergi pulau ka. tsk tsk. ='|

and I did use my so-called-precious time at very best lulz. mana tak best makan, tido, tengok tv, tido, bangun lagi, makan lagi. daaaaaan restructuring my life here and there so it doesn't sucks anymore. I wish! raya was great but without certain individuals to celebrate with, it did feel empty somewhere. duit raya? naah budak budak je collect duit raya tak macho ah. xD

on another case yang tak berkaitan, at some point I do feel that I am not worth your time. I am not that great for you to think about. 

eat well. 

live well.

 dan itu aku

presenter

bila macam benda dah lama happened tapi kau baru nak update, I just don't care and give shits about it so shadap people lulz. being one of the presenter have taught me a lot in many ways I could possibly tell. macam there are certain criterias that you need to have. its either you're born with it or you polish it. apa apa pun skills macam be able to present whatever you need to macam agak useful in future la especially in the industry. so I planned and did well. I guess.

besides been able to conduct projects for locals is something mulia la since you're giving back to the community. tapi bila macam kau tak menang and the opportunity to go to cancun mexico hilang sekelip mata you start to ask yourself "should I give more to the community?" or "should I stop giving?" luls. dapat first runner up pun jadi la ini la orang melayu tak reti bersyukur luls.

"the future is not written in stone"

on another case yg tak berkaitan, who knows what's the future holds for us? in the meantime grab yourself and make your stand. dream big as you can. but along the journey please please cari and gather all the support system you can find. sebab bila macam once you failed or collapsed you wont go that deep. I am here. so does everyone else. =)

 and benda paling precious yg aku dpt yg mana kau tak boleh beli kat mana mana.

family.

well I took your challenge 

and make it mine

dan itu aku

all is well

" the devil was once an angel "

" those who are heartless once cared too much "

when you live your life for someone else.

you know you'll find yourself in the deep shit once the person walk away.

 the night you chose to be with someone else.

I knew I am all fucked up!

the journey onwards might not be easy.

but imma solo those shits and walk through it.

I wish I am strong enough to say all these.

I guess I just lost my balance.
and the worst part of it all wasn't losing you.
it was losing me.

life is a gamble.

and I know I bet wrong.
I just can't seem to get out.

dan itu aku.

life is a gamble.no big deal.

it is nice to meet great person in your life.

eventhough your did not know them in your 1st semester,

or when you start to a make a joke on them on your 2nd semester,

or when you start to give them a crappy look on your 3rd semester,

when you think you are way better than them.

 then they came without knocking.

and they just keep coming until you start to have a second thought.

making you wonder that they might be not that bad at all .

by that time, you realize everything about to end soon.

and all that matter is time.

the dice I'm about to throw

might bring me somewhere I dont expect to be

but who the hell I am to care.

while the pieces is still there,

I might be better make the best out of it.

and I have no idea where to begin.

flow with the wind?

I guess.

life is a gamble,

and how much you're willing to bet?

dan itu aku

Life is overrated.

 

they say the last game during your senior year

 stays with you forever which is true.

here's mine.

 

 

some played with formula and calculation in order to build the best architecture design.
some just give it to their kids to play so that they have time to fuck of their own.
while others are not that lucky to get to know the game.

in our case, we played just to create a scene that everyone will 

never be able to forget with those of course sucks-to-the-feet bets.

and getting me driving to McD drive-thru without an actual car,
it is *%@#$!   xP

time you enjoy wasting,

was not wasted.

dan itu aku

Transition

Transition in life are usually marked by major events, birthdays, graduations, weddings, but the greater transition often come out of smaller moments, when we stop and look at who we are, because each time we see how far we have come, we also see how far we still have to go. In order to fully transform, we might need to free ourselves of everything we've been holding on to, to send us on our new path, the right one. But if at the end, you find the person you have become is not the person you want to be. You can always turn around and try again.

once you leave here,

do not forget why you came,

and whom you met.

dan itu aku

goodknight, 13A.

you once asked me

"in our life, there must be a color that we never seen 

and there's might be a lot of them."

this is my answer

"you know, when i met you, i knew i've seen them all"

goodnight, 13A.

goodnight.

dan itu aku.

 

ohsem people

awesome people is awesome.  =')

 see.this is one of the reason why i am not regretting on the path im taking.

the great people i met.the moment that created.everything seems to be..

great. 

 awesome people is awesome.

enuff said.

dan itu aku.

-,-'

so as I hangout at Kiara last friday, I ended up buying this..

 

 LMAO.and it cost me like 200 bucks and something.the question is ..

how the hell im gonna wear it to classes on Monday??  

-.-'

im doomed i think..

dan itu aku

hb

lol at these two friends of mine.peng n kelly.just act normal if you guys do wanna hide whatever relationship u both have.instead of trying to cover, but end up creating an awkward scene yg sangat xboleh blah.kitorang lepak je.so chill!  xD

                on the other case,

                hepi birthday mate

                get well soon

                dan itu aku.

hey

when time crawl so slowly..
when everything seems not to be on the right place..
when i try to avoid problematic scene that i once created..
i'll end up here.
and literally i laughed to myself.

"sup bloggie?"  xD

a story to be told
                yet i cant find the word

                dan itu aku

 

voicemail.

1313.1.11.11.11.11.11.11.11.11.11.11.

I miss you like HELL!!

8 months past already

and im dying to see you baby

dan itu aku

take it easy..

whenever it comes the night i felt so damn lonely.aish.something is missing.the piece that i try so hard to ignore it just to protect my own feeling.damn.i admit it.since the 1st day we met, i gave everything to you.and yes it was my fault for not keeping some of it for myself.where did i go wrong?am i not good enough for you?i kept wondering for the answer.the answer that i already knew but at my best try to deny it.i came down to earth to find a soul.a soul that will company me till the end of my journey.since i do not prefer to walk alone.someone who can actually guide n support me.someone who can show me the right things to do n inspire me.someone who always there when im needing of you.

i do believe in fairy tale.all the happy ending stuff always make me feel secure.but it looks like the serious relationship im looking forward after couple of years is not there yet.and it seems never gonna be there.how im suppose to take it easy since you're the only one im looking for.those wet glittery eyes that once look at me n told me how much it've been missing me is the one im waiting for. if it happen to be you're not the one im looking for.i hope we can end it without ruining all the sweet memories. i need them to continue living. n i hope as im walking down the streets i will meet someone exactly like you and this time i definitely will find the heart im looking for.the one that sees only me and patiently wait for me.always there for me.no more games.no more lies and no more hidden story.

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
coz I just wanna be happy..

u can play on me

but u cannot crush my heart

hihihi

dan itu aku.

distance.

you are miles far away.

please come back.

just once.

dan itu aku.

mid sem break

sabtu-catering (batu kikir)

ahad-catering (putrajaya)

isnin-broga hill + KL

selasa-catering (seremban)

rabu-melaka

khamis-melaka lagi

jumaat-serdang

sabtu-catering

anyway.1 week holidays agak berbaloi tak balik ke rumah.dapat lepak kat sawah lebar.catering.dan berjalan.terima kasih pada part time catering aku dapat beli sliding bag DIESEL.sumpah lawa!

partner in crime:

 

 acab dan ah peng

 master mind dan acab

 ah peng lagi

 acab lagi

 master mind lagi

sekian.

cari duit habiskan duit.

seronok syial!

dan itu aku.

trio

perghh terlelap bai.assignment xsiap2 mam!hahaha!apa ada hal.setakat nak kena create 9 web pages then link2 to each other kacang je kot.lambat lagi kot nak hantar.besok. =,='

so far july's being great to this spoil brat.thank you.after 4 times trial nak tonton transformers 3D.drive satu jam pergi seremban 2 letih!most of the time 'SOLD'.even on Monday.gila!orang seremban sah ponteng kerja!cisshaktuih!at last dapat jugak wehh tonton.serious cakap gila babeng best!weehuuuu!!

last saturday pergi concert kat shah alam dengan eva n izni.hahahaha.mengarut punya plan.sanggup ponteng LDK.pergh!mantopp.then lepak sunway.eva most favourite place.katenye~~haha!tak disangka jumpa cik epal.LOL.cool cool aku tak gelabah.takde snap snap picture.tak tak.orang lain tuu bukan aku.

eva, me n izni wuhuu!

benda yang paling cool july ni, aku dah beli tiket Harry Potter 7 Part 2 semalam yeahhhh!!

p/s: lama gila karang baru nk post -_-!

i love beatiful people.

dan itu aku.

good spy knew everything

the truth always hurt.no matter how hard i try to deny it.no matter how hard i try to pretend not to know about it.it's life we're talking here about.pretty little liar.  =')

tahniah buat anda

dan itu aku.

pergh!first semester kelas baru, lecturer baru, budak baru, rumah sewa baru semua lah baru. business faculty pindah balik sini banyak yang hottiess auwww~junior macam biasa, semua bajet study so nerdy bosannnn. 1st week lecturer pun lepak. kelas sana sini kosong makan gaji buta.euwwww~ hahaha. last nite tengok sir im lawan basket. perghh first time tengok dia main live tak tahan hebat. phantom yeahh!!

anyway, semalam ade anonymous text-ed me all the sudden and suruh pergi car park asap macam whattt??haha aku kenal kau kaa? then bila i tanya siapa tak reply pulak. duh. memang tak laa. end up girls from my class yang makan those chocolate yang terselit kat kereta time diorang jog semalam. lol. funnayh! and thank you for the sweet note. hahaha!

 movie hangout jomm!

so much for the first week

macam macam hal

dan itu aku.